Tuhan

Tuhan...
aku akan melakukan sebisa mungkin..
bantu aku ya Tuhan.
amin...

1.10.13 Add Comment [0]

October

by the first day of October.
it js just a right time to move...
to leave behind all tears
to leave behind my thought of you
I know that I used to use my ego on against you
but it seems you didn't let me in to your life.

simple. I can simply say you let me to leave you.
an obstinate person. that's what my thought of you. I will let myself go away from your life.
by the first day of October.

let the October be the eye-witness
of how we end our friendship.
I don't want my life depending on you. I am tired, I will grow up as a strong girl. I don't need.

I know I can't leave you. I don't know why. but this hurt needs to be cured, this feeling needs to be elaborated. the more days spent by thinking of you, the more moreee positive feeling I have for you.

I know this is hard, but I will try to walk away as you have requested.
don't wait for me, I won't go to your place. I am not waiting for anyone. I just want to continue my life.
don't...don't ever try to phone me. I don't wanna hear your voice. I don't wanna see your smile cause I know this thing won't be successful.

this is my fault, I know.
but you also have a fatal fault in my eyes.
you didn't ever there in my worst condition. how can I forget?
go...go away..  and
I will go away too.

I let you go I let you fly, why do I keep on asking why?

hey October! lets shine

29.9.13 Add Comment [0]

Hello

Hello my blog. Long time write.
I spent my holiday in studying, hanging out, and becoming lazier than the laziest cat ever lol.

Some days ago I went hanging out with my friends. There were 6 friends and with me so there were 7 happy persons hanged out.

Fortunately, God kindly gave me another second chance to meet him. Someone I used to talk about in my previous posts, call him Mr. Variable.
The curious me could not even wait too long for that time, That time to ask the same question over and over again. You may say simply as "why you leave me?" question.
Eventhough God kindly gave me that chance, but the moment spoke so unfairly, the moment was not so obedient, I could that the moment betrayed on me on that time. Unfortunately, I didn't get such a happily answer. The same as it used to be.

So by the answer of Mr. Variable. I declare myself to fully walk away from his life. Continuing my journey, journey of life. I surrendered. This is better than I have to keep my heart being hurt or keep my head on thinking of him.
Goodbye sweetheart we probably don't mean to be together.
This is the end.
Bitter end.
I could feel it.
How about you?

12.8.13 Add Comment [0]

Thank you

Thank you
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19.7.13 Add Comment [0]