well, i wanna tell you about today. today i followed National Science Olympiad. a cool science competition, of course! if you can get medal you will be free to choose your favorite senior high, and the main reward is you will get GOLD ticket to follow International Olympiad it means you can join the Olympiad and if you are the winner you will get scholarship from college in abroad or local like NTU, NUS, ITB, UI, or maybe Harvard (see! Harvard!!! a luxurious college). wow can you imagine it? ah really. it's like an impossible dream for me. see! who's me a freak 'glasses' girl who is not lucky, never win any competitions yet. huff.
so today i followed physics subject, i like physics so much than biology. why? i don't know haha i like it because i get more knowledge on physics subject.
now it is not matter what is the result, i am not really ready actually. so i am not optimism.

actually the problem is not that. i just wanna share about that, the problem is at my class.
this is for someone not my closed friends, not my teachers.
i think you are different now. you are not like i know about you at past. maybe you are not care to me again. it's okay if you just give care to them it's okay. i will not be care with you again. enough for it. i think we are far now, i think i don't feel comfortable with you. i think i don't need you, and so do you. so let me go, and continue your life without me.
it's okay, it's okay if you should avoid me. i am not angry if you leave me alone but you are happy. i am still i am, i will not be sad without you. you must know, for me it's hard to tell all of my stories honestly to you now. now it is not like at past, maybe you've changed never mind. I'm okay okaaay and okay. i am just disappointed
i am care of you really! maybe i am being sad now, but tomorrow i promise i will open new page of my life without you beside me :D
i hope you will open my blog. read this post.

okay may i admit something?
i am jealous with your new friends haha. it means i feel i am forgotten by you, so I'm jealous.
never mind maybe tomorrow i will not be jealous.
goodbye.