sorry, tulisan yang di blog itu bukanlah pertanda aku berharap baikkan sama kalian. it was so last year, not now. so i mean build your life alone and let me go to. that doesn't mean i don't need you or i don't care of you, but.... like you've said that you can be more successful than me, yes i know that. we all have same potential so why you feel like you're at the lowest level ?

maybe you never want to listen my voice. you may lost your trust to me. but how about me? you never know that i had lost that before you said that.

so what?

don't cry for me because i will not do that. i am tired enough, it's enough for us. don't be mad at me because i am not. it's so unfair, i am always at the loser one haha, please don't repress me!

i have too many pressures.

and i will forget our friendship believe that, it feels like a bitter friendship, can't be fixed, can't be changed. it's so unpredictable for me. but it's His plan, i believe that maybe i am not fit with you or what ...

it WOULD be a miracle if we COULD be unite like at past

because you always put your madness at me

because you always put me at the suspect section

because you always put me as a mistaker

because you always think i am such an egoism

because you always don't see the situation

and i am tired

because you always get many defenses from your friends and i am not

how can you know my feeling, how can you know my position

if every way i try to say the truth

to say my feeling, you always judge those are wrong

but they are my feelings

you said that i made you happy when you were sad, you said that i made you calm when you were said but you said that i always broke your heart

....

i am disappointed

let me go, let me feel free like at past

maybe it's the time to say good bye

you may hate

you may invite everyone to hate me

i still don't care

maybe you will get many supporters and i don't

i still can walk well alone

i still have God, i still have family

i still have everyone who knows me well

i am still tired of you

i am still tired