this is me. sitting in front my black computer.
i hate having this situation again. but in different edition.
i just feel life getting heavier. yes, time by time i know life is hard. life is heavy.
so now i am just cheating with my friend named Nikkie, she is 8 SHS' student and she tells me all about SMAN 8. all about it. and i just got frighten. why? because i think my mental can't reach it. (means maybe i can't follow the lessons).
but my father says "oh you can." but when i want to enroll smuki he says "i am not sure you can follow the subjects." so i canceled it.
but, must i cancel this dream? i have canceled my dream and must i do it twice?
i don't know i am not ready canceling it.
i just....i just don't know what i should do.
i just want to fix my behaviors so that i will be ready to 8's student on time.
wait me. wait me.