this post is special for my classmates who probably are being sad, down, and disappointed.
i know and understand your feeling cause I ever had same feeling like yours.
do you remember about my story before being a junior high student? when i got not-good national examination i really felt disappointed, i was really sad. maybe the feeling is same like you. i was really confused which school will i choose? they had high standard, and me? i just got enough score. i wanted to enroll 75 junior high and 111 junior high but my score wasn't enough, so i stopped to hope. my sister pointed me to 89 junior high. at the first time i was really happy. then we enrolled there. on the school first day, i was really disappointed seeing the students, they were really cruel and i hated it. twice i thought, God disappointed me.
my days in 89 were cloudy, i really wanted to move. i was really messed up, my spirit seemed to be erased, i really wanted to get out as soon as possible. everyday i cried to my mom "mom please move me to 75 or 111" but what was my mom's answer? "be patient in there, dear. God has another mind with yours. don't use your own mind. God knows the best for you, maybe God has big plan for you."
I stopped to beg my mom, and rode my life as usual. again i felt so disappointed, on the next year (8th grader) i begged my mom again "mom, please move me to 75. i really dislike my friends. they're cruel" my mom said yes...but the fact? i didn't move.
days by days i still waited for God's plan for me. where were they? one day...it came i won a poetry-reading competition and it made me met directly with Mrs. Ani Yudhoyono. see? God is really nice to His followers who are loyal to Him. then...another God's plan to me is i won a competition called "siswa berprestasi" among west Jakarta region, after that some competitions among DKI Jakarta Province.
in here by showing my achievements i don't want to show off but... i just want you to think that God plans are better. more better than you think. at first you may cry but at the last? you'll be happy, maybe overjoyed.

for the last story...
i really wanted to be 8's student, I've told to my parents and they agreed. I don't know why, suddenly i enrolled SMANU MHT *it is located in Cipayung, East Jakarta. at the first my perception is "i just want to follow the test not take it, because i really want to be part of 8 senior high" but do you know what's the fact? if you are accepted in SMANU MHT you can't enroll another government schools. and do you know how my feeling was at that time? i felt shocked, confused. what must i do? i asked to myself.
some of my friends who have same perception with me decided to stop their way on SMANU MHT. they prefer 8. i still followed the test. "maybe i won't be accepted" after i did the test i was really sure that i won't be accepted. my parents still supported me. yesterday the news came, and i am officially part of SMANU MHT. i didn't know what must i say, but that news makes me so happy although there is little disappointment, that means i have to say good bye to 8. it's okay. God always has another plans, right? accept it happily and you'll get the best! maybe in 8 later i can't survive, or maybe the distance is really far from my house. thank God. i am sure that MHT is the best way for me :) I love you, Jesus.