well, Oya persuaded me to write again in my blog. oh yeah! i will. and I'm doing it right now. Deasy told me about her nightmare via msn, well...that made me wants to share my nightmares to the readers. well i ever underwent 2 sick and suck nightmares.

the first one:

i forget the date but it happened on night. i ever dreamed like this. well you've known that I'm accepted as MHT student, as you know I'm the 3rd generation of MHT, it means MHT haven't graduated any students yet. at the first, my parents were doubt to enroll me there, but yah..they surrendered and agreed to enroll me there. well some people say that you better take 8 than MHT, MHT haven't graduated any students, the quality can't be made sure, blah blah blah till their words make me really trapped, confused, and want to reverse the time. in my dream, there was someone who says "MHT haven't graduated any students, and you haven't known the quality" those words made me scared, made me wanted to escape from the reality. that's really bad nightmare and made my heart beat non-constantly.

the another bad nightmare is

as you know that i really expect to get good marks on National Examination, well i have made a target. then i dreamed that i couldn't reach my target. my marks only got below 32. it really made me stressed and depressed. i couldn't tell you more. i don't have many words to describe it.

well, if you discuss those topics to me, i will be so sensitive. i really don't want to imagine those topics. those have successfully hurt my holiday, hurt my heart, mind and made my heart's beat inconstant, although they're just dreams but i feel so near with those dreams. they maybe fact for me. i don't want..........please not becoming fact. i hope God. i beg You.