you can't change past. but you can learn from it. -Delgo (a quote, but i forget it uses "can't" or what. but i think the point is it."

yes. we can't change past. it has been passed. i still can't sleep because of same problem (again). sometimes i want to cry just because of this problem. too heavy (i think).

i just think "can i survive in my senior high?" "can i make my parents proud?" you have to know that my senior high school's fee isn't cheap. my parents have worked hard to pay it, and yah...i don't want to disappoint them. serving red marks? are u crazy?!! i don't want it happens to me.

God, i'm so weak now.

please help me...give me spirit and strength so i can be as strong as You.

sometimes i really want to go back, so i can choose another senior high. seeing my seniors in my senior high from their tweets or every single entry on their blog makes me really down. down to the lowest place ever.

God, please help me.

God, please guide me.

God, please...