wogh! hello guys. finally i can post something useful here (what do u think bout something useful nggi? do you think that all of your entries are useless? hmm not really-_-). so! today i really feel much better than some days ago. i have found something useful. it's like i have found a rare gold around mud (?) lol.

so.....today we have ehm something that's like character building. we were asked to tell about our difficulties during staying in dorm. i told so many things that i feel during 2 months here like my difficulty to catch the point of a subject, living with friends, and many mores.

but something that i didn't told have been answered by Kak Saleh (my character building teacher's name is kak Saleh). something ever happened to me at the past. it's "I always underestimate myself" i always think that she's smarter than me, MUCH SMARTER (?) than me. she always gets good marks and me? oh yeah....i need to struggle 100 times heavier than she does. it's fact. that's what happened to me some days ago till the last day of my retreat.

you must be curious "what's the answer, nggi?" and i have to say it honestly. something that i never thought it before and he said it. "a person can get good marks than you because she is more ready than you! she has prepared it some days ago before you. shortly she is much ready than you."

gotcha! that is the point!! some days ago i haven't prepared anything well. Well, i studied but i didn't finish it till the last point of that subject. it's like you want to take away a plant, you have taken away all, the trunk, branches, twigs, leaves, flowers, fruits....all....except one, the most important one. you haven't taken the root.

yah. shortly you haven't finished it. haven't.

and that's what i underwent some days ago before i realized that i have to finish what i have started.